what do i really want....

this week is among the worst days of my life...im so confused and all...
what do i really want, with my life and all.
im so thankful and grateful at the same time that my friends are always there for me and also my family, they didn't abandon me at times when i needed them most but still, i don't know why i feel so incomplete despite all the blessings that i'm receiving right now.
i know that i have to move on for my baby's sake but i just don't know where and how to start all over again...
i keep on pretending that everything is okay but it is not, not at all.
when are all these gonna stop... i want someone to talk to at the moment, i feel so alone...but what i need is someone who will just listen and all...i am so sad coz i cant think of one...
ahhh...life is really like this, there are times that you just have to do things on your own...
what a LIFE...